Missing you somthing aweful

People come and go in our life like the weather. Sometimes when I reminisce I dedicate songs to them. Entire playlists for others. You'd be surprised, you should ask me what YOUR song is!

When I reminisce about some people I am always surprised about even the smallest, most insignificant of relationships can have such an impact on my life.

Back on the Roof Again

Back on the couch again. I just can't sleep sometimes. Maybe it is the Frozen yogurt from an earlier BTO session with ashflash..... :-)

And here I am again. Back on the couch. It's 1 am. And I am exhausted, no ready for another long work day.
I guess I am just letting all the stress get to me; it makes me want to tear my hair out some days. It feels so grown up!! And lonely. And stressful. And sometimes exciting. Like a constant reminder of how insignificant I am in God's much bigger world.

Marriage

I am blessed to be married to the awesome-est guy ever. but let's be honest, even when you are married to Mr. Awesome, Marriage is a challenge.

I have always said, even before I was married, that marriage is like any other 'job' in life....Something you have to work at everyday. Well, now that I am almost a full year married, I can now say with CONVICTION, that I was VERY RIGHT!!

However, the interesting thing to me, is that the challenges I assumed we would have are not an issue, it is always the things I, again ASSUMED, were too simple too be an issue! awww such is life. Such is marriage.

And THAT is why God gave us humor, then the end of the 'little' thing fights can be funny! sometimes.... :-)

In Transit

Reality. MY REALITY. Slaps me upside the head sometimes. As Reese from Malcolm in the Middle once said "I used to think thoughts; now my thoughts are thinking thoughts.... it's like I think....therefore I.....oh wait... I JUST HAD IT!"

haha However, what is "Epiphan-atic" (epiphany -like for those who don't speak my made up words) for me, may for a reader be a 'well DUH k8,' so feel free to cease reading.

Epiphanies for me are usually in the terms of thinking about life while driving to or from work. Life not in terms of time; I know my life is short, I have never feared the end of it... I know where my heart is and I know who holds me, but more in terms of, the life I always thought i could and SHOULD live. The things I dreamed I would do or accomplish. The woman I wanted and believe i can and should be, the things I feel I need to and am meant to say. I have always thought in the eventually. But good grief Self, I am 22 years old, the eventually has not only started, but has started to pass me up! Time to start living up to my own expectations!But then of course there is facing what that actually means...... taking responsibility for the goals I have set for myself. Hard work. Doubling my work ethic. and OH YEAH. Narrowing down what my goals are exactly... hmmmmm oh reality why must you stifle my dreams??

And for THAT matter who am I to set expectations to begin with? My God's plan for my life is so much bigger than what pathetic little thoughts my brain could ever even HOPE to muster. And how is it I BEG God to use me for greater things, when I can hardly manage to my small tasks acceptably? I always pray I can live each day to his Glory, and I can only KEEP praying that my pathetic attempts even scratch the service of what should be God glorifying actions. I am thankful I serve a forgiving, gracious Lord.

Let Freedom Ring

What an awesome day! I love the 4th of July, Dad's cooking YUM, HOURS of Boggle with my hubby and Cargo Pants. I love fireworks, I think they are the kewlest most romantical summer activity EVER. And for the first tie ever I got to share the experience with my Joseph. Luscious. :-)


too tired to blog now. MOre tomorrow