The way I are....

DabuDidabuDiDabuDI Dabu DI....I'm BLUE!!! heheeh remember that awesome song??
Tonight, I am working on playlists for my newly working ipod. It deserves a new playlists. Adding such titles as "DANCE" "TECHNO sorta" "My name is Kate... and I like to Party" & "Daydream."

Today was my husband's Birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY you Old FART~!!

Getting ready for my vacation. I could not be more excited for a few days off.
Things have been very frustrating at work.
My whole life I have been in situations where I was ahead of the game, young for whatever i was taking part in....this situation is no exception; save for the fact my inexperience gets in my own wya sometimes and frustrates me. And my boss tends to 'tease' ... in the sense my administrative inexperience she thinks is 'cute' 'adorable' etc. my nerves are frayed with in an inch of my sanity.
TO top it off business is pretty slow for the summer.

Trying to decide on one piece of good reading material for my trip. And of course indulge in my usual airport magazine...probably Vogue. Or maybe a Good Housekeeping?? You can see my life priorities are torn...

grrrr

"Hope has two beautiful daughters: their names are anger and courage. Anger that things are the way they are. Courage to make them the way they ought to be."~ saint augustine

I have the anger but am a cowardly mouse.

joyness

Joseph and I have had a an amazing 1 year anniversary...the aquarium, hiking, rock climbing, Inception, my family, his family, my bro and Katie, and BUFFY!

Rock climbing could become very addictive. Forget me being afraid of heights, finally letting go was exhilarating!

I have a love hate relationship with hiking. Hate that its a fight to get going, especially in high altitude like yesterday Mind over matter.... in which I always win. LOVE that middle part where we stop, sit, and enjoy God's glorious creation!! Both of us quiet and contemplative. And LOVE the trip back to the car...the last half. However, I hate the drive home for some reason; probably cause I am usually dehydrated and feel sick haha.

A glorious weekend with hubby, family and friends. And year old cake ..blech :-)

I can't believe I have been married one year today to Joseph! 3 years since we met... time flies when you're having fun

Missing you somthing aweful

People come and go in our life like the weather. Sometimes when I reminisce I dedicate songs to them. Entire playlists for others. You'd be surprised, you should ask me what YOUR song is!

When I reminisce about some people I am always surprised about even the smallest, most insignificant of relationships can have such an impact on my life.

Back on the Roof Again

Back on the couch again. I just can't sleep sometimes. Maybe it is the Frozen yogurt from an earlier BTO session with ashflash..... :-)

And here I am again. Back on the couch. It's 1 am. And I am exhausted, no ready for another long work day.
I guess I am just letting all the stress get to me; it makes me want to tear my hair out some days. It feels so grown up!! And lonely. And stressful. And sometimes exciting. Like a constant reminder of how insignificant I am in God's much bigger world.

Marriage

I am blessed to be married to the awesome-est guy ever. but let's be honest, even when you are married to Mr. Awesome, Marriage is a challenge.

I have always said, even before I was married, that marriage is like any other 'job' in life....Something you have to work at everyday. Well, now that I am almost a full year married, I can now say with CONVICTION, that I was VERY RIGHT!!

However, the interesting thing to me, is that the challenges I assumed we would have are not an issue, it is always the things I, again ASSUMED, were too simple too be an issue! awww such is life. Such is marriage.

And THAT is why God gave us humor, then the end of the 'little' thing fights can be funny! sometimes.... :-)

In Transit

Reality. MY REALITY. Slaps me upside the head sometimes. As Reese from Malcolm in the Middle once said "I used to think thoughts; now my thoughts are thinking thoughts.... it's like I think....therefore I.....oh wait... I JUST HAD IT!"

haha However, what is "Epiphan-atic" (epiphany -like for those who don't speak my made up words) for me, may for a reader be a 'well DUH k8,' so feel free to cease reading.

Epiphanies for me are usually in the terms of thinking about life while driving to or from work. Life not in terms of time; I know my life is short, I have never feared the end of it... I know where my heart is and I know who holds me, but more in terms of, the life I always thought i could and SHOULD live. The things I dreamed I would do or accomplish. The woman I wanted and believe i can and should be, the things I feel I need to and am meant to say. I have always thought in the eventually. But good grief Self, I am 22 years old, the eventually has not only started, but has started to pass me up! Time to start living up to my own expectations!But then of course there is facing what that actually means...... taking responsibility for the goals I have set for myself. Hard work. Doubling my work ethic. and OH YEAH. Narrowing down what my goals are exactly... hmmmmm oh reality why must you stifle my dreams??

And for THAT matter who am I to set expectations to begin with? My God's plan for my life is so much bigger than what pathetic little thoughts my brain could ever even HOPE to muster. And how is it I BEG God to use me for greater things, when I can hardly manage to my small tasks acceptably? I always pray I can live each day to his Glory, and I can only KEEP praying that my pathetic attempts even scratch the service of what should be God glorifying actions. I am thankful I serve a forgiving, gracious Lord.