People come and go in our life like the weather. Sometimes when I reminisce I dedicate songs to them. Entire playlists for others. You'd be surprised, you should ask me what YOUR song is!
When I reminisce about some people I am always surprised about even the smallest, most insignificant of relationships can have such an impact on my life.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
Back on the Roof Again
Back on the couch again. I just can't sleep sometimes. Maybe it is the Frozen yogurt from an earlier BTO session with ashflash..... :-)
And here I am again. Back on the couch. It's 1 am. And I am exhausted, no ready for another long work day.
I guess I am just letting all the stress get to me; it makes me want to tear my hair out some days. It feels so grown up!! And lonely. And stressful. And sometimes exciting. Like a constant reminder of how insignificant I am in God's much bigger world.
And here I am again. Back on the couch. It's 1 am. And I am exhausted, no ready for another long work day.
I guess I am just letting all the stress get to me; it makes me want to tear my hair out some days. It feels so grown up!! And lonely. And stressful. And sometimes exciting. Like a constant reminder of how insignificant I am in God's much bigger world.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Marriage
I am blessed to be married to the awesome-est guy ever. but let's be honest, even when you are married to Mr. Awesome, Marriage is a challenge.
I have always said, even before I was married, that marriage is like any other 'job' in life....Something you have to work at everyday. Well, now that I am almost a full year married, I can now say with CONVICTION, that I was VERY RIGHT!!
However, the interesting thing to me, is that the challenges I assumed we would have are not an issue, it is always the things I, again ASSUMED, were too simple too be an issue! awww such is life. Such is marriage.
And THAT is why God gave us humor, then the end of the 'little' thing fights can be funny! sometimes.... :-)
I have always said, even before I was married, that marriage is like any other 'job' in life....Something you have to work at everyday. Well, now that I am almost a full year married, I can now say with CONVICTION, that I was VERY RIGHT!!
However, the interesting thing to me, is that the challenges I assumed we would have are not an issue, it is always the things I, again ASSUMED, were too simple too be an issue! awww such is life. Such is marriage.
And THAT is why God gave us humor, then the end of the 'little' thing fights can be funny! sometimes.... :-)
Monday, July 5, 2010
In Transit
Reality. MY REALITY. Slaps me upside the head sometimes. As Reese from Malcolm in the Middle once said "I used to think thoughts; now my thoughts are thinking thoughts.... it's like I think....therefore I.....oh wait... I JUST HAD IT!"
haha However, what is "Epiphan-atic" (epiphany -like for those who don't speak my made up words) for me, may for a reader be a 'well DUH k8,' so feel free to cease reading.
Epiphanies for me are usually in the terms of thinking about life while driving to or from work. Life not in terms of time; I know my life is short, I have never feared the end of it... I know where my heart is and I know who holds me, but more in terms of, the life I always thought i could and SHOULD live. The things I dreamed I would do or accomplish. The woman I wanted and believe i can and should be, the things I feel I need to and am meant to say. I have always thought in the eventually. But good grief Self, I am 22 years old, the eventually has not only started, but has started to pass me up! Time to start living up to my own expectations!But then of course there is facing what that actually means...... taking responsibility for the goals I have set for myself. Hard work. Doubling my work ethic. and OH YEAH. Narrowing down what my goals are exactly... hmmmmm oh reality why must you stifle my dreams??
And for THAT matter who am I to set expectations to begin with? My God's plan for my life is so much bigger than what pathetic little thoughts my brain could ever even HOPE to muster. And how is it I BEG God to use me for greater things, when I can hardly manage to my small tasks acceptably? I always pray I can live each day to his Glory, and I can only KEEP praying that my pathetic attempts even scratch the service of what should be God glorifying actions. I am thankful I serve a forgiving, gracious Lord.
haha However, what is "Epiphan-atic" (epiphany -like for those who don't speak my made up words) for me, may for a reader be a 'well DUH k8,' so feel free to cease reading.
Epiphanies for me are usually in the terms of thinking about life while driving to or from work. Life not in terms of time; I know my life is short, I have never feared the end of it... I know where my heart is and I know who holds me, but more in terms of, the life I always thought i could and SHOULD live. The things I dreamed I would do or accomplish. The woman I wanted and believe i can and should be, the things I feel I need to and am meant to say. I have always thought in the eventually. But good grief Self, I am 22 years old, the eventually has not only started, but has started to pass me up! Time to start living up to my own expectations!But then of course there is facing what that actually means...... taking responsibility for the goals I have set for myself. Hard work. Doubling my work ethic. and OH YEAH. Narrowing down what my goals are exactly... hmmmmm oh reality why must you stifle my dreams??
And for THAT matter who am I to set expectations to begin with? My God's plan for my life is so much bigger than what pathetic little thoughts my brain could ever even HOPE to muster. And how is it I BEG God to use me for greater things, when I can hardly manage to my small tasks acceptably? I always pray I can live each day to his Glory, and I can only KEEP praying that my pathetic attempts even scratch the service of what should be God glorifying actions. I am thankful I serve a forgiving, gracious Lord.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Let Freedom Ring
What an awesome day! I love the 4th of July, Dad's cooking YUM, HOURS of Boggle with my hubby and Cargo Pants. I love fireworks, I think they are the kewlest most romantical summer activity EVER. And for the first tie ever I got to share the experience with my Joseph. Luscious. :-)
too tired to blog now. MOre tomorrow
too tired to blog now. MOre tomorrow
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Top Gun Party!!
ummmmm I am maverick in my flight suit!... Ashley is just...hott..... *eyeroll* :-P
Michael put that camera down...and I am ninja!!
Chris, Chris, and ashley's foot
Me and my maverick. JOSEPH YOU BIG STUUUUDDDDD!!!
We are so much cooler than we used to be...
BALLOONS
Parachute men in honor of Goose NOT making it...
Dog tags etc...
PLANES
JOSEPH'S HEAD FULL OF BALLOONS!!
Chris, corey and joseph...We had food, beer, toys, and TOP GUN TRIVIA!! hung out, and watched Top Gun...sort of.
An awesome excuse to get people together to hang out, MORE IN THE FUTURE FO' SHO'!!
Saturday, June 19, 2010
"blow a kiss to the judges!"
nothing more comforting than a brand new FULL episode of Toddlers and Tiaras on TLC! Really makes me feel like my parents were the BEST! Those parents are nuts and I LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!
I also just cramped my hand filing my nails. owe...silly LMT that I am always filing
my nails you would think I'd have it down by now but NOPE not a chance...
Getting a massage this week and can't wait! My shoulder is out in the way it likes to do every few months (supraspinatus) ... Trigger Point work..DELICIOUS
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!
I have the best father ever, and feel blessed more than ever to celebrate as God gave him to us for a while longer after that horrific scare in February... PRAISE GOD! I could go on for days about my dad, how proud I am of him, how he's inspired me over the years....how every little thing we DO have in common makes me beam on the inside. ooohh to have a FRACTION of my Father's intelligence as an adult would make me thrilled beyond belief! oh and his sense of humor.. Only in my family... Yesterday I had him cracking up by singing my newest parody song about parents who do not vaccinate their children called "I'm bringing Polio back' sung to the tune of Justin Timberlake's sexy back. wow. only in my family would we find that hilarious. ooh anyway.. I LOVE MY DAD
I also just cramped my hand filing my nails. owe...silly LMT that I am always filing
my nails you would think I'd have it down by now but NOPE not a chance...
Getting a massage this week and can't wait! My shoulder is out in the way it likes to do every few months (supraspinatus) ... Trigger Point work..DELICIOUS
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!
I have the best father ever, and feel blessed more than ever to celebrate as God gave him to us for a while longer after that horrific scare in February... PRAISE GOD! I could go on for days about my dad, how proud I am of him, how he's inspired me over the years....how every little thing we DO have in common makes me beam on the inside. ooohh to have a FRACTION of my Father's intelligence as an adult would make me thrilled beyond belief! oh and his sense of humor.. Only in my family... Yesterday I had him cracking up by singing my newest parody song about parents who do not vaccinate their children called "I'm bringing Polio back' sung to the tune of Justin Timberlake's sexy back. wow. only in my family would we find that hilarious. ooh anyway.. I LOVE MY DAD
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